~Every time I close my eyes~ The noise inside me amplifies~

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 19:51:05 GMT

Wow
It's livejournal and not myspace

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 23:05:06 GMT

Interesting things are happening. I can't say many of them are good.
Florida is looking better and better every day.

On another note, my dvd collection seems to be increasing. This is good.

Persephone rocks. She is walking almost totally normal now. She's such a sweetie.
Other than that..no good news that I can think of...

bleh?

Wed, 17 May 2006 15:07:01 GMT

Yesterday rocked.

I've been having a rough time lately..being stressed about numerous different things. I hung out here with everyone for a little while...but I had to go to my parents. When I got to Ravenswood I hung out with my dad for a while before he went to work, then I did a bunch of productive things like laundry and the like...visited my grandma, washed my car..and as I was doing that..Shane stopped by

That was very strange. I was so confused, I didn't even know who he was at first. He's never drove me around before!

He stole me away from my labours for a while..we went cruising around, and then hung out later..after I ate dinner with my mom..

We drove back to Parkersburg..smoked, hung out in the cemetary..walked around..we had fun..

I know I did

Fun musik, fun Shane=fun times

..after I got home..I talked on the phone with Mike until I was soo tired I had to go to sleep
I also hung out with Jeff, Bryant, and Tim for a little while..

I'm so out of it at the moment..I wonder if this is making any sense..

Tomorrow..tomorrow..

Athens in the morning, and Huntington at night. I'm going to hang out with the Mikeness :) woot!

I haven't seen him in a long time. Almost 2 years, actually..so it should be interesting.

Whatever flavor it happens to be...

Tue, 09 May 2006 15:15:39 GMT

Finals are done, and Heather feels weird. Why is it that when I finally am done with classes, at the end of the semester, that I feel like I am doing NOTHING with my life? *JESUS FUCKING CHRIST*
Today I have:
-cleaned my entire apartment
-responded rather meanly to pervert messages I received while leaving my messenger up (something I miss doing in my spare time, sadly enough)
-thought way too much, about numerous things
-took 2 showers
-made pizza
-made 3 VCDs (documentaries...I've downloaded a TON of new ones in the past week)
Wow, that's a lot of stuff to get done by only 11:00

I don't start my summer classes for over 3 more weeks. I'm just taking two, so that won't be hard. I only have 1 the first month, then the second month I have 2 classes.
Then I will have officially obtained my BA degree. Go me.

Ok..so..
I need to do these things before August:
1-Go to Old Man's Cave
2-Go to Summersville
3-Go to that Abandonned town outside of Athens
4-Go to King's Island, or Cedar Point
5-eat more shrooms..EAT MORE SHROOMS...EAT A LOT OF SHROOMS

things, and such

Thu, 04 May 2006 21:36:59 GMT

So...last weekend was kick ass

I've been busy, as usual...but I still have time to do things I want to do...

Well, well..where to begin..

I guess I should tell everyone in the world that I hung out with Shane and Jeff...walked around rails and trails for a while...and then came back here and had a good evening..

I drank from the vine...I hung out with Jeff, Jessie, Shane, Tim, and Bryant...while drinking..it was quite fun. Later on the Beckster called me, and Shane and I met her at True Colors (because Tim was nice enough to drop us off). Too bad they play too much country musik there, otherwise I might have had a better time. It's okay, though. I still had fun. Woowww...I learned all kinds of new things..and was my usual fun drunk self...

hah

Well, we drank with Becky for a while, met her friend Crystal...and talked about various things..we'll have to go to some other bar sometime, or something

After the bar ..Tim picked us up..my god I was fucking drunk..2 bottles of wine, and 2 sex on the beaches later...We found some gurl walking down Market St. ..in the middle of the night...she looked interesting..so Tim stopped and talked to her...I was sooo fucking drunk at this point...I'm sure I don't remember all of what happened..actually I know I don't..but I remember having even more fun at this point..and going crazzzyyy (does crazy dance) ..so that gurl's name is Rebecca. I told her she had pretty hair, and she said I did too. I do remember that much. Oh, and she gave my a tulip. AND she gave Tim her number..woot, woot.

Mushrooms would have been better..but alcohol is much cheaper.

After we got back to the apt fun was still going on..

Shane passed out and Jeff took some pictures of Tim dancing around Shane's head..that made me laugh soooo fucking hard, I thought I was going to die. ( I was very drunk)

Oh..and this was the first time I'd got drunk since October 28th of last year.

fun weekend...yes..

freedom

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 16:43:25 GMT

Myspace causes too much drama. I don't know what to think of it anymore.
fuck everything.
I think I'm going to start updating this thing again..maybe the people who read my stuff on myspace, dont know about my livejournal..and wont read it..
therefore..it will be back to MY journal..
and not...the journal of the public
fuck everything lately, seriously

We did have a nice walk the other day. The team party excursion and I went on an awesome walk (on rails and trails) all the way to Petroleum, WV. It was awesome. It was pretty. There was smokage. It was a lovely day. Afterwards we topped the evening off with some Brewing Co.
Yesterday was nice, also..Olive Garden with Jeff and the rents
Today I've been finishing up some neglected homework (as usual)
2 more weeks, finals..and I'm partying it up

Things have been weird.
They are about to get even weirder.

fancy that

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 16:52:52 GMT

People are so silly sometimes..the things they do in their lives, in hopes others will see..it's really weird that people spend that much time with childish things like that, in my opinion..but I guess everyone has their childish side..I think mine is mostly harmless, though..I don't like drama, but it seems like everyone else in the world does..practically

I'm a *leave me the fuck alone, unless I talk to you* type of person, most of the time..but I do let certain people know I'm human, and my blog, of course..and I do have a few select friends..I actually hang out with a lot of people, but I usually find ways to not hang out with most people that try to hang out with me..so that's why I moved over a year ago...to keep most people away, and it worked..I just didn't tell anyone I didn't want to know where I lived..and that took care of that little problem..but now..it seems..I want more out of life that just an endless stream of nameless people...

I've made soooo many mistakes in my life, about the people I hang out with...if its such a problem to me..why dont I just stop talking to people?

I don't think that's possible....and if it were..I dont think that would solve anything..people need to talk to other people, and as *un-human* as I think I am...I still realize this

But people fucking suck..just when you think you have someone..you know someone..

You find out you are...and were..wrong..nothing but..horribly mistaken..

Well, I guess that's my rant for this morning..

I'm currently eating a yummie burrito, and making fun of meat eaters, online... (fuck idiots that eat dead animals, by the way)

IN my life...I dont know what I feel like sharing with anyone and everyone (because I know people that I dont like read my blog, and I think its funny)...

4 more weeks of class: one test next week, at least one test the week after..finals 5 weeks from now..I almost have my research papers finished, and my geography final...i hate school...im sooo fucking sick of it.. I need a break..a big one..and some way to get through the algebra class im taking this summer..which brings me to the important question: WHY IN THE FUCK DO CRIMINAL JUSTICE MAJORS NEED COLLEGE ALGEBRA FOR ANYTHING???????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Oh, they don't.

In other news, I have been trying to keep a low profile..but it doesnt work.

Travis (my x) started talking to me...well he talks to me ever so often online..and says he wants to hang out..but I always tell him to stop trying to start shit..and eventually end up being wayyyy too nice to him, probably..for our past history, at least

He called me yesterday while I was in class, and Jeff answered (thinking it was me calling from the school). For all those who don't know...Jeff and Travis hate each other..or at least....Jeff hates Travis.

He was a dick to me, etc.,etc.,etc., and tried to "cut himself" at Jeff's work one nite, because Jeff and I were dating.

I guess I could see why Jeff hung up on him yesterday.

People are silly.

I actually got to see my brother yesterday (it's funny how G-dogg always MAKES him do things) hahahahahahahhahahah

He's such a sweetie..and I'm glad he's still doing good with his classes. I miss him a lot.

Jeff and I had to take him back to my parent's house last nite..because the beatle is having problems.

We even hung out with my parents for a few. It was fun.

The other nite, while Tim was drunk he told me that Butthole Jones (a.k.a. Jeff Martin) was sending him emails asking about me. I guess that's a good thing, but again..we have a past that's not good..

but it's a PAST, right? Or is there really any difference between the past, present, and future? I don't really think so..they are so closely related, how could one tell, anyway?

He is a really intelligent person, in most ways..but he doesnt have a clue about me, or my personality..or, he definitely didnt act like it. Some people can be so fucking intelligent, and not have a clue about other people..

It also scares me, when I start to have feelings about people. Thats probably just a way for my mind, my heart..whatever you want to fucking call it..to distance myself from the only people who can really hurt me.

God, I'm a fucking sad poem.

Every move just makes me realize the fact that we are emotional machines

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 21:10:21 GMT

I have been...not feeling well, to say the least..
Everything is fine, though. Everything is fine.
I was stressed with all of my car problems, and other such things..
I now have a great car..
I was worried about school, and such...
Now that I don't have Algebra, my schedule is much easier (18 hours now, instead of 22)
I don't really know who my friends are.
What are friends, exactly?
..I don't seem to have many actual friends
.....
This is my icky midterms week..next week will rock
I'm going to go clubbing this weekend with Becky..
I think I'm going to ask Jess if she wants to go...I said I would go to Utopia with her a long time ago, and we still haven't went.
Maybe Shane wants to go.

I'm also still planning on going to Morgantown next week.
On a very fun adventure....

I can't wait until Thursday.
I'm kinda stressed out..

Tim has been having some problems lately, but things are looking up..
Maybe things will be alrite.

I've been denying like 20 people a week on MySpace, isn't that fun?
I guess..
I play the Sims wayyyy too much..
I also worry too much (probably)
I can't wait until the end of this semester, actually
...and until the Summer/Fall schedules are out, so I know how much longer I have to live in this awful state...
shit...
I need a job

weekend

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 22:55:07 GMT

I went to Charleston yesterday...with Jeff

It was pretty kool..he found himself some kick ass Adidas shoes made out of hemp, we ate at Bennigans...and just wondered around for a bit..

I actually got all of my homework done for tomorrow..and I have no tests this week...

I've been hanging out with the usual people...and fucking hating the cold..

There is nothing to do in Parkersburg except smoke, and hang out with people..maybe eat a few exotic mushrooms..

I'm cold, and I have no mushrooms

*pout*

I am the voice inside your head

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 22:09:51 GMT

Algebra has been going..well...not quite as good as I'd like it to ...
Other than that, my classes are as to be expected..
Tim got a new gurlfriend recently. She's very nice, seems to have awesome interests, is very funny, cute..and, well..Horray Tim!
lol, she's really kool...
It seems the dumb ass cunt, Sara hasn't called me for a few days..that's good, maybe someone is finally giving her some attention...she's an idiot..
I'm getting ready to go to my Statistics class...I have my first major Algebra test this week..and a Statistics test this week...
Bryant is going to try to help me with my math, I think...
I play the Sims and smoke too much...

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 16:18:49 GMT

This week has been trying, to say the least..I fucking hate college algebra. My other classes are going well, but it's a pain in my ass..I'm fucking glad I'll have my BA this summer...I'm thinking about maybe going to grad school before law school..I'm still looking into it..my new car is doing well..and I am tired..I have a fucking tutor in algebra now..because I failed both of my quizzes we've had so far (hah)...
I know I don't pay much attention to this anymore, but I do pay lots of attention to my MySpace

www.myspace.com/prettynihilist

mmhmm

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 19:29:42 GMT

Well then...
I still have an Alero rental car...my car is a piece of shit, so I'm getting a new one...
classes are boring, and suck this semester..ok, they do every semester, but this one is especially bad, because of all the math...
I'm going to have to stay another semester, I think...so that means I'll be here after this summer..
so I'm not very happy about that one, either
Oh well..I'll still be graduating early
Placebo's new album is great.
The weekend is here, and I must do some fun things...
It's nice out today..I think I'll go for a walk...
maybe Shane and I can hang out this weekend..
wish I had some shrooms

Yesterday

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 16:56:39 GMT

Well, my past week hasn't been that fun. I'm still having car problems, and I just started college again. On the bright side, two of my classes were cancelled for last week..and most of my classes seem pretty easy (except college algebra).
I have class Mon-Thurs. now, but that's not too bad, especially since I get out early on Thursday..I'm only in class until about 1, or so.
Now, let's get to yesterday...
Yesterday was my "break" for the week. I spent it hanging out with Shane. We went walking around in the woods in Athens...we tried to get lost, but it didn't work too well...although we did find some interesting places in the woods, close to the mental institution.
We smoked a lot, and I forced Shane to eat Mexican food with me....
Eventually we made it to the old TNT place...smoked some there, and I got scared (it was dark, hah).
It's nice hanging out with Shane..he talked to me A LOT yesterday, and we had lots of fun..I don't remember the last time I've smiled, and laughed so much in one day (probably the last time I shroomed).
...

Jeff and I haven't been getting along really well lately..
and it seems I'll never get my car fixed..
It is nice outside, though..so maybe I'll take a walk, before it gets cold again...

january

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 20:26:45 GMT

What if... (in no particular order)

I could instantly wipe away religion from the human race?
A substantial comet hit the Earth?
SARS morphed and took out millions of people?
The New Englad Patriots won 3 Superbowls in a row in the era of free agency?
I could spread my seed as far and as wide as I wanted to creating a planet of me?
I could be a professional golfer?
I was three inches taller?
I discovered the true meaning of life? No suggestions please, because you don't know either.
People always voted for the "general will" instead of themselves?
I could predict the future?
I could kill all living mosquitos within 100 yards of me at all times?
Someone could truly get inside my head?
The Earth began a true ice age or heating cycle?
It would make life more interesting wouldn't it?

Solitary experiments

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 02:54:22 GMT

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Not lose any pencils.

Get your resolution here

Ok

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 16:39:15 GMT

Alrite, so...I ate some shrooms with corey/his gurlfriend, Jeff, Tim, and Shane
Fun stuff..
Shane actually talked to me, and we got along really well.
We had some really intelligent conversations.
The next day we walked around Mason/Pomeroy...went to the old TNT place, ate some Mexican food...walked around Lakin..
I donated plasma, went to the mall with Tim, corey, and his gurlfriend.. and faught with Jeff the rest of the nite

Yesterday I went to Ravenswood...
I dropped off Shane's book to him, and Jeff and I hung out with my parents all evening.
They gave me a hundred dollars, and some really expensive cooking stuff for Winter Solstice, and my Grandma from Fl sent me 100$, and my aunt denise sent me 20$ and a box full of kool things..
so, that's good..now I can pay my fine for running a red light *oops*
*shroom pictures*

break lovelies

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 03:08:49 GMT

It's my break..yay ;)
I've been having lots of fun..
ate some shrooms yesterday...hung out with Jeff, Bryant, Corey and his gurlfriend, and Tim..
fun stuff
Lots of light hung out throughout my apartment to make things interesting..lots of good musik (mainly Tool and Cake)..good stuff

Today Jeff, Corey, Gretchen and I went to Athens..we went to the usual places, walked around the old mental institution, went to the Import House, and ate at Ruby Tuesday's
Good break, so far..
-Tomorrow I'm donating plasma (I think my brother is going with me), then going to Ravenswood to do laundry, and such
-Tuesday I'm (hopefully) getting my car fixed
-I need to get my oil changed this week too..and sometime during my break I need to buy my books for next semester, and ask for my letters for law school
blah..I'm going to smoke the rest of this blunt now

Yep..

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 00:19:41 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last week I ruled Iran as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). Last Monday I caught a purse-snatcher who stole tbprock's purse (30 points). In March I didn't flush (-1 points). In September I pulled wvagravehunter's hair (-5 points). Last Sunday I farted in an elevator (-6 points).

Overall, I've been nice (718 points). For Christmas I deserve a Lego set!

Sincerely,
heatherkittie

to pass the time..

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 00:59:36 GMT

Your dating personality profile:

Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Intellectual - You consider your mind amongst your assets. Learning is not a chore but a constant search after wisdom and knowledge. You value education and rationality.

Your date match profile:

Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship.
Intellectual - You seek out intelligence. Idle chit-chat is not what you are after. You prefer your date who can stimulate your mind.
Stylish - You cannot put up with someone who is lacking in style. You want an original, someone with flare, someone with good taste.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Liberal
2. Stylish
3. Intellectual
4. Wealthy/Ambitious
5. Romantic
6. Sensual
7. Big-Hearted
8. Adventurous
9. Outgoing
10. Traditional

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Outgoing
2. Intellectual
3. Stylish
4. Adventurous
5. Romantic
6. Sensual
7. Big-Hearted
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Practical
10. Traditional

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contrary to popular belief (as seen on myspace)

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 16:10:53 GMT

I'm finishing up my last week of classes..and I'm pretty sure I'll have 5 A's and 1 B this semester, so I'm really excited to get my 4 finals that I have next week the hell out of the way..

Next semester (after my break) I'm going to be taking 22 hours..this includes, but is not limited to: 1 Earth Science class, and lab, College Algebra, Statistics, Geography, 2 Criminal Justice classes (in Ripley), and one Sociology class at 8:15 in the morning..wow, am I fucking insane?

After this I have 2 electives to take during the summer, and I should be fucking finished..and yes I will have graduated a year early..I'm just great like that *giggle*

Soooooo...aside from class..my parents took me out to eat last nite, inbetween classes..I got to listen to my mother bitch, as always..and I feel bad for my dad, having to live with that kind of shit...but, I guess that's the way he wants it, right?

My god, have I been downloading a lot of stuff lately..I downloaded the entire collection of Velvet Acid Christ and...the Felix the Cat movie, Home Alone (hahahah, laugh if you will), lots of Disney movies..and lots of other stuff I can't remember currently

I have to study a little bit today, and type something for my final english class tomorrow..but other than that....I have nothing to do today..

My car is in Ravenswood, currently..being fixed..it started overheating on me yesterday..there is always something wrong with that fucking thing, anymore..and I think I need a new car... *cries*

My nose is kinda stuffy today..

Everyone is gone, except Tim ..who is asleep..

I'm kinda bored, but I have some things I need to do..so I guess I'll do them..

Party time after next Thursday :)

WooHoo :)

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 22:29:47 GMT

You scored as Severus Snape. Well you're a tricky one aren't you? Nobody quite has you figured out and you'd probably prefer it stayed that way. That said you are a formidable force by anyone's reckoning, but there is certainly more to you than a frosty exterior and a bitter temper.

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Sirius Black

90%

Severus Snape

90%

Albus Dumbledore

80%

Draco Malfoy

80%

Ron Weasley

65%

Harry Potter

60%

Hermione Granger

55%

Remus Lupin

55%

Ginny Weasley

55%

Lord Voldemort

45%

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Thu, 24 Nov 2005 17:40:52 GMT

Why are all movies almost exactly the same?

shroomage

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 15:58:07 GMT

Wow, I've been having some shroomy times lately (needless to say if you saw my last blog entry)

-I hung out with Jessie, Tim, and Jeff in Athens the other day..we were on shrooms..we wondered around in the woods...sat in a fort and smoked a bowl..sweet stuff..I always realize a lot of things about myself..other people..life in general..when I'm on shrooms..I *hate* it when people refer to things as being *gay* all the time..as if it's an insult..not that I am gay, but my bi friend does that all the time, and I think it's fucking idiotic, especially coming from her..I also hate fake people..fuck all of you..as for our adventure..it was great..we ate at the Pub for lunch...hung out in the woods by the mental institution, on the hill...for hours...smoked in the cemetary..at nightfall..I tried driving..I went the wrong way down a one-way street, and when we got to the mexican restaurant for dinner, I hit the curb, slightly..but no casualties, and no one got hurt

I absolutely love shrooms.

Aside from that day, I don't really remember what other details I fail to mention in here, so I'm sure none of it matters too much, anyway

I'm on my Thanksgiving Break..I got my car fixed, because I've had to get up 3 days of my break and drive to Ravenswood to get it fixed..I got new tires, my transmission fixed, and a new part put on it..and now it fucking wont work again.. *dies*

Other than that, I've been enjoying my break..I have 2 weeks of class left, and then finals..then I'm on my x-mas break, for about 4 weeks.. and I graduate this summer..

It makes it easier for me to count it down, like that.

So..guess who's in town now? JEFF! Awesome!..He surprised me and called me while I was sleeping the other nite when he got here, but I didn't answer..lol

We hung out yesterday, though..we went and saw Harry Potter together, at the mall..and it was pretty good, although I'll have to say...I think it was the worst one, so far..and I thought the ending was total shit..

The Jeff I live with was upset by me doing that, too..he wanted to go see it with me..so I feel bad about seeing it at all, now..

Nothing else of interest here...

shettering the light we have lost

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 22:06:59 GMT

So..not much has been happening lately..

I went out to eat with Jeff, my brother, his gurlfriend, and my mom ..at Olive Garden..yesterday

The day before Jeff and I went out to eat with my neighbor, who is one of the nicest guys I've ever met..and I'm very lucky to have as a neighbor...

Other than that..I've been sitting around my apartment, studying..and hanging out with Jeff, and Tim.

Sometimes I talk to Jeff on the phone, but he hasn't seemed to want to talk with me lately...although he said it's just because of how I'm acting..I don't know

a sort of fairytale

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 15:38:04 GMT

Same stuff as usual....nothing too interesting..

Yesterday I was in class for most of the day, drove to Ravenswood and hung out with my brother, and Gretchen for a few..did some laundry, went to classes, went to dinner with my parents..went grocery shopping..my I was a productive gurlie yesterday, wasn't I?

When I got home Stevie(!?!?!?!) came over...I guess since she hung out with Tim at a party she thinks we are best friends again...
After that Jessie came over...Dan fucking moved to New York..he doesn't even seem to want to talk to her now, and he just moved their yesterday..

I knew I never liked that idiot douche-ass..

Today I'm going to sit here and make myself do my fucking english homework, and study my french..
Tim is asleep....Jeff is at work..no reason not to..

Now..this weekend..more like Friday..I think we are going to take an adventure to Old Man's Cave, and actually go this time..
I hear there will be acid involved ..with some of our group participants, but not I...

Hopefully Shane will come..I even said he could bring someone I don't know with him, because I'm kool like that :P

*~*Every time I close my eyes*~* The noise inside me amplifies*~*